I've hit a writer's block as I'm trying to finish my 7 page paper. I managed to pull out one paragraph besides the intro I wrote a week earlier and now sitting here in Tapex watching Janice Dickinson's documentary on her terribly sad yet glamourous life.
Today's been a shocker. I don't even know how my final went because I was so tired taking it that I fell asleep a few times and woke up to find my answer sheet half filled. I definitely didn't do well in lab now that I got my practical back, but I sort of expected it. Fate plays dirty tricks and false hope does no better. I keep on thinking that maybe this just isn't meant to be. But then I've always believed in making my own way through life. It just seems like every obstacle takes me twice to three times the amount of energy to get over than other people's misery. Sometimes it doesn't seem fair because I know I work hard, yet I don't get results period. It is quite depressing to realize that maybe you just don't have the talent for something you're interested in. Does this mean I should give up and pursue another? The prospect of starting over terrifies me like a child's fear of the darkness. Where do I belong in this world? As a dentist? As an artist? As a nobody? I need something to direct me. Right now I'm blindly running and hoping to catch up with the bus that I hope to ride on one day. When is that day? When is everything going to be certain?
Now I'm left witih 5 minutes before this place closes and still a good half of my essay to write. Motivation'll be helpful around now. Maybe a haircut will help....
THANKS FOR ALL THE INPUTS. I'll post a picture of what it'll look like after I get it cut. short. straight :)
Comments (2)
Hey, you're not alone =). don't worry about bio lab;the class
seriously doesn't prove anything. I know you can do whatever you want
to do as long as you put your mind to it. I don't think you'll ever
have to answer some stupid questions in 45 seconds like "what's
analogous to this structure?" or "what the heck is a picture of?" in
the real world. what matters is that you tried your best. i definitely
questioned myself last semester b/c i studied so much and worked so
hard..yet i didn't get the grades I wanted (i made a lot of stupid
mistakes)...but in the end..i still enjoyed learning about bio..i just
hated the class haha
can't wait to see your new haircut!
back to studying for mcb 102..total fail T_T
whaaaaaaat I just caught this now.
it takes faith, a lot of blind faith to follow what we want, it seems like climbing the big hill. been pondering about it.
Call you tonight.